Why peace can feel so g*d damn elusive.
Lately I have been reflecting on peace, and all the ways I have sought it out over the years, with varying levels of success. From yoga, meditation, journaling, grounding mats, therapy- you name it, I’ve tried it. The truth is, you can do all of the things- but if you are still investing your energy into relationships/endeavors that are no longer aligned for you in this season of your life, that peace will remain elusive.
As i sit here in this moment, navigating the dissolution of a 7 year relationship as well as launching a new business- i am shocked to find i feel more at peace than i have in a long time. I have been reflecting on why this would be given the big changes I am presently navigating.
I am presently inclined to believe that unless we are ACTIVELY fulfilling our function/responding to our souls calling- that finding peace remains elusive… even if our life looks good on paper/we are not actively navigating a difficult life circumstance.
Fulfilling our function/living out our purpose, looks different for each of us- for some it might look like quitting a corporate job and becoming a stay at home mom, for others it could mean selling all of our possessions and moving across the country to follow a dream. There is no right or wrong here- and the more that we can cultivate an awareness of what expectations have been placed upon us by society/our family of origin vs. what are souls are calling us to move towards, the more alignment and peace we will uncover for ourselves.
In this season, when friends/family/society might expect me to be struggling with these big life changes- i have been able to find both peace and inspiration for the following reasons…
It was my choice to end the relationship, and I did so from a place of full acceptance of the other- and the deep awareness that my former partner and i had expanded as much as we could within the container of our relationship and that it was time to move on- in order to continue doing what we have all came here to do...to evolve.
I was able to release him with love, knowing there was someone better suited out there for him and for myself… and that my friend allowed me to feel a deep sense of peace and even dare I say, gratitude.
Finally answering the call to make a pivot from my 15+ year career in the salon industry into a career in mindset & small business coaching (which I had been feeling called to since 2021) has stretched me in many ways also brought me a profound sense of peaceful alignment.
Pulling back my energy from two major areas of my life which had been feeling stagnant (relationship & career) and reinvesting that energy into new endeavors has been absolutely life giving.
So today i ask you my friend, what areas of your life currently feel stagnant/draining? How can you begin to consciously pull back your energy from these areas? What endeavors would you like to channel your energy into instead?
If you need help navigating this energy audit, I would love to guide you through the process.
All my best,
Cristan
